Or at least thats what it feels like. November to January is abnormally slow. I don't know if its the cold weather, holidays, or what have you. I am not the only one feeling the financial crunch.
Which would not be an issue if I was still living with roommates. But three months ago I got my own place. And rent is already late. So is the electric bill, internet/cell phone bill. And of course I have to feed myself and put fuel in my vehicle to get around. This stuff is pass due or rapidly approaching.
So that leaves to me to weigh my options today. I cant really afford to go out of town right now. So do I get another job? Then what happens when things pick back up again in February? Then I am left with people complaining when Im not available at the drop of a hat. And it doesn't pay enough. Plus I would have to wait for a paycheck. Maybe seasonal or part time? It would have to be away from the public. I still occasionally deal with a panic attack here and there when Im super stressed out or overly tired.
My other option is to give up my apartment. Which sucks. I will lose my deposit. I will be breaking my lease (not good). So when I go to find another place it won't be as easy. I would be moving in my friends. I love them to death don't get me wrong but it will be crowded and incalls will no longer be an option.
What to do, what to do? I have the afternoon to think on things while I do laundry. I will update my blog when I reach a decision. This isn't going to be an easy one :-(