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Just deleted my last blog post-
This man from out of state has been pushing me too hard to visit him that, its getting frustrating. I just deleted the last blog of mine not to rock any more boats.
Someone really underestimated my intelligence. Alot, of us females learn from certain lying,cheating men. Understand?
Wonder why someone would want to be beaten? Do females in bdsm have low self esteem? They must have. You have to love yourself in order to love anyone else. This is a fact. I understand the control part but, not the abuse?
Anyhow, spoke to a couple male friends of mine in Vegas and also to a female porn star in Vegas last night. Wish, I was there. One of the guys was in the casino gambling when, he got my call and I could here all the background noise. Am going to tour St.Louis,Cincinati and Cleveland in a couple months. However, Chicago and Vegas will be my two main stays. I still own my house-hopefully not for too much longer.
Such a nice day today went to a small social gathering at a condo by the lake for a couple hours today. This is one of my non-hooker friends. Ate too much again. Lots of sweets cheesecake, cookies, cake and pizzas. etc
Its so weird Roberto used to tell me not to talk to Steve and now Steve told me not to talk to Roberto. I'm not talking to either one of them at the moment. lol If you two read this why don't you call each other up? lol Better idea-one of u could hypnotise the other one and the other one can cast a spell on you. lol laughing too much! I need to be in Vegas! all too funny, Steve calm down-byeee
Still haven't had my hair re-done! I'm starting to look like a witch.
Have a great Monday!
 
Not rushing into retirement after all
I spoke to someone who told me no way is it time for me to retire. They know a woman 10years my senior who has appts booked up for the next 2 weeks.
Made me think, I should slow down on my projects and decisions. Except for selling my house that is a sure thing. Provided, I can get a decent price. I have so much of it paid off my mortgage is much lower than most peoples rent.
I started my new store and am having a hard time. Can't give details about it on here.
Steve and I had a argument and am not going to speak to him for awhile. He told me if, I ever talk to Roberto we are done for good. Gary keeps pushing me to come to Indiana and I can't go now. I also have my male friend in Vegas. I'm just slowing down with all u guys also. Only 2 of the above are aware of my blogs.
Couldn't catch up with one of my regular clients in the suburbs as I wanted to go to his house tonight. Try reach him over the weekend. I've known this man about 18yrs. Talk about a regular! He is nice to talk to after all these years he's my friend too. I've been under pressure lately by several people and just wanted someone to talk to. Guess will call down to Vegas and talk to my male friend, b/f whatever he is for advice.
I've been trying to throw things out of my house and clean certain areas expecially the basement and its really a mess. Lots of old x-mas, Halloween decorations just may toss out and paint cans. etc some of my daughters old toys-Barbie dolls, stuffed animals. Will keep some in the hopes someday she has a child. What a person can accumulate in 7 years.
Weird calls again. A man from New York calls wants to know if will do him and his friend together. Now, I've done that before. 2 men and luv it. Its just that he wanted to do some bizzare things. Too out of the norm for me. And the usual calls like no references. I've never seen anyone before. I would be there first. Why do I have to be the first???? Don't u hate that? Total newbie. Unfortunately, no verification jack this lady doesn't see u. Told him to try Craigs list. Sure he can meet a nice police woman or crack head.
My last vent-knock at my door today. Lucky, I was alone. Its the jehovah witness people again. They bothered me quite a bit a couple years ago. I just screamed, am not interested and I'm busy and not in a nice tone. Let them in once and they will be back every week trying to get me to come to "Kingdom Hall." Hell, maybe thats what I need. Turn religious??????
Thinking about retiring
Well am dating 4 men now. And have had some very tempting offers of moving in with someone and giving up the lifestyle. Lord, it will be hard for me as luv the life. I luv the sex but, am over 40 now and don't want to be a working lady like some who are ove 50. I've been exploring alot of new avenues (adult industry) and would still probably see a few regular clients. I luv and respect all the fine gals have met through the years. Christy, Ginger R, too many to name-Jamie Lynn comes to mind and Jewel who introduced me to being a stripper back in the late 80's. I want so to sell my house and really want to change as my daughter, family would so much respect me do I make this decision. It won't happen now. I'm talking about retiring in a few months. Like after the summer.
I have invested alot of time energy into my provider lifestlye and will not end this easily. I will gradually slow down. Perhaps, I will change my mind. But after a 2+ hour phone conversation recently am thinking this will be my last year.
I may do some movies and things in the adult industry for a few more years but, escorting may terminate by this fall. Will keep everyone updated.
wow, more snow! Just came in from walking my dogs and the snow covers the black ice and I walked sooooo slow. My wrist never healed properly from last years fall. Im actually panic like when am outside. Pitiful! It hurt so much last year-a broken bone is very, very, painful. Just quit a man so bringing the number of men down to 3 am considering. I still miss one guy in some ways and can't really move into one of these 2 houses yet as don't want to make another mistake.
What is considered fat?
Okay, I really weigh 134lbs. I looked at another gals profile and she is 5'7 just like me and weighs 128. If, she is telling the truth. Now, I feel like am overweight. Think will start a diet next month and try drop 5lbs. What do u think?
Snow, slush, slippery out. Walked my dogs and am really walking like someone 90 as last year if, any of you recall fell and broke my wrist. I don't want to fall again and go through that. I neveer healed the right way. Still need surgery.
Trying to open up my store today-new project. Its going slow but, I'm not the brightest bulb in the pack. Acutually, I have alot of common sense and am capable. Hell, I own my house (mortagage almost paid) how many people can actually say that. My car is paid for-no note. Putting my daughter through college, vet bills for 3 dogs, I better quit as am making myself dizzy!!!! I really hoped someone would guide me through these projects but, they kept putting me off. So will do it by myself.
I said this in a earlier blog. Don't blame me when all hell breaks loose. However, did not start all this by myself. Your fault too. What neglect can do. It will be out of my hands. Guess who's coming do dinner????? I care but also don't care. Property can be stolen. Too bad so sad. Stick a fork in me am done.
Spoke to my daughter briefly but, she was busy finishing a paper and only talked a brief while.
Hope we don't get much more snow. I luv u Chicago!
Miss all my girlfriends-can't wait until, the next m & g. Sorry, missed the last one due to being in Vegas again.
Darla
Dig my shoes? My daughter left these at home-hooker shoes. Only for her they are clubbing shoes-she looks sharp as a razor when she goes out for the night. I'm serious, the girl dresses down!!!!
Thats the way I always thought it would be? Carley simon. I don't want the marriage just the part time live in. Thats all....
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