satelite TV is growing me wheather I like it or not. Weather not wether hahaha
Satellite TV! ugh
So it has been raining for days and days and they say it will continue for days and days. Better break out the dominoes cause the TV is not getting a signal.
I was so excited to get back to writing and now I am forced to eat sleep or pen my thoughts and what the hey I've nothing to say. Need an assignment.
So I am going to check out classes on writing and the teacher no doubt will hand out exercises on writing. There is a lot to adjust too living with an avid eater. Like forget about left overs. Once you push the plate away your avid eater friend will consume every last bite.
Ice cream too. Don't sit and dream of that last bite of ice cream. He already ate it. I got to be careful on the food thing. I get anxious and eat everything as fast as possible so no one else will. ugh. I just accidentally lost 20 lbs. I managed to gain 10 back but I think a laxative will change all that.
So I am watching OPRAH Sunday schedualing and Dr MYSS is the guest. But with satellite TV is such that each time she breaks for a comercial the satellite connects. I am missing most of what they are teaching.
So I really want a Kindle or some sort of gadget like that. I really want to go to Barns and Nobles but no ride. I probably saved enough to buy a book. $32.oo . I'm going to try to learn how to find and read a book via this lap top.
If you know how I can do that get in touch. During this self imposed rustication period, I am planning on learning more about the internet and computers. Don't know how that will work.
All I can say for sure is once I concretely decided to let reneemyrenee.com go and to move out of my 3 bedroom house I am reaching. Before the past few days and this decision all I could come up with was nothing. lol I still haven't come up with something but I don't feel the emptiness of coming up with nothing. I suppose there is a prospective difference there.
Do you guys really want to hear this crap? I guess I could care less for today. I'm sitting in the drivers seat waiting for directions. I'm not sure where they will come from. But God uses people. They say the rocks and stones could/will/can cry out and that he can use a jackass but I'm counting on my inner being and some of you to spin me around and point me to something.
Well then off to investigate how to use this laptop to read a book by MYSS. If you want to send me one or some or all or your favorite email me for my mailing address.
What will I become? WoW I just remembered what I went through the beginning of this year, when I applied for rape counseling as a prostitute.
You may wonder why my being a prostitute would have anything to do with getting counseling for early childhood rapes but let me tell you something.
The hub of all rape counseling organizations will not attempt to help me if I am going to continue to prostitute. They claim it is counter productive.
Well I am going to tell you all about that but not now. Now I am going to go on an adventure with Dr MYSS. I am not sure she is an MD but let me poke around, she sounds good at least the parts where the satellite is connected. lol
I wonder if I will ever be able to break through the pain and the shell that I brought into my own childs life. She isn't incline to be close to me whatsoever and I, me and my big mouth and balance, told her not to trust me more than she is comfortable. If it is too much, if it is hurting her ability to move forward in life, cut me off.
OUCH she wont let me in.
just a parting thought that keeps me occupied.