Well I have somewhat got out of my funk of being down but things haven't been the greatest. My boyfriend's,I guess you could call him, mom died Monday. I have spent the last week on the phone with him trying to be supportive and really don't think I have been much help. I have not had to deal with death as of yet and I really think I am doing a poor job at being supportive for him.
Also my best friends mom is dying of cancer and she could die any day. She is only 54 and such a wonderful lady. It kind of put me back in my funk and has had me not wanting to get out of bed. Thanks to aunt flo at least I had a reason other than that to not take appts. It just gets rough sometimes when I do not want to deal with anyone but the phone keeps ringing. It is never anything against the gentleman that call but lately I just needed some time to myself. Then I feel like I have neglected everyone and start to feel bad about it all.
To any men out there that read this, do you all understand that we sometimes need time to ourselves?
I try to keep up with the emails as best I can but the phone calls sometime are just something I need to set aside for a day or two. I do not want to talk to any of you when I am not my cheerful self. I always want you to see me at my best and when I feel I am not I just do not answer my phone. Is that bad of me or fair to the men?
Anyway Happy Holidays everyone and remember this is a time to be with the ones you love. I am hoping that I have that for Christmas beyond my children which always brings a smile to my face.